So, life has been a bit crazy here. I am 24 weeks pregnant and have no clue what the baby is. I blame myself, because I needed to find a new doctor because I wouldn’t be able to do a home birth at this point.
Yes, I did look into. My fifth child and I was tired of how things were done. It was just so nice to be seen as part of the process instead of just being the woman who was pregnant. The midwife was wonderful! And yet, I had to switch and go back to the doctors I had before and my appointment is next week. Then I will be 25 weeks.
Anyways, with that being said, have gestational diabetes takes a lot of will and self-control over what I eat. I don’t want to take insulin, but I may have to take the night one because my morning numbers are still hitting around 120 (sometimes lower, sometimes a point or two higher). The rest of my numbers are pretty good throughout the day, and I am trying to keep eating right, but I do have my moments! I can say, out of all my pregnancies, this has been the best one as far as keeping it on track.
The only thing is, it’s been a bit stressful this past week or so. My Mom just had surgery on one of her knees and I couldn’t go in with her because I still had two kids and it’s flu season. I got to see her afterward to get her stuff, but I was pretty emotional (I blame hormones! and people who make you feel like you can’t do anything…enough said). Trusting God in those moments were a bit hard, but so many people were praying over the whole situation that I was tremendously blessed and encouraged. But with stress comes emotional eating. I wanted to eat bad. And, in a way, that day I did.
And regretted it.
So, there is a lot to work on in that area. Please keep praying for my Mom. They were going to do a knee replacement on both knees but found that her bones were too soft. And so she has to wait awhile to do the other one. She wanted to be done so she could help me when the baby came out (sometime around July 4th) but it is probably not going to end up that way. 🙂 Well, she will probably be there. But she probably won’t catch the baby. 😉 Well, it’s my Mom. You never know!
As far as everyday life, my husband and I have been going through car troubles and it will hopefully end by May. It has been quite a journey, with driving and chauffeuring him back and forth at times to things. It’s been hard but God knows all the details and has made it work so far. And when we got to one aspect on this journey, God blessed us tremendously. I can’t share all the details, but it just brought great peace to a never-ending cycle of stress for my husband and just a thankfulness to God from both of us.
As we worked on that, I keep trying to get through and finish school with the kids. They have grown since the beginning of the year, but there is still so much they need to catch up on. I am just thankful that through it all, we have persevered through the year! And though there have been schedule changes, things put aside and brought back out, there has been a lot of learning. Learning school, learning about each other, and figuring out what in the world next year might be like with five and how to make it run slightly smoother!
I have to say, I don’t just want them to learn academics but life. And how to treat one another. I guess that has been a battle and yet victories are seen throughout the process. I really am blessed to have the four beautiful kids God has given me and I wouldn’t trade them for anything!
The one topic that has been in my mind the last couple of weeks has been the word diligence. I have always said I am not very self-controlled or diligent. Two weeks ago was one of the most amazing weeks I had ever had with that, but I always wonder why the original plan doesn’t last.
Mostly because it’s not my will, but His will that needs to be done. And I guess the idea for this week that has worked so far?
Lord, what is your will today? What do you want accomplished? Help me to accomplish the things you have put before me to do. Work in a way that glorifies you. Help me to glorify You.
So how have you been?
Don’t give up. Keep walking forward!
Be inspired today.