I was coming home after spending time with my Mom. I turned 32 this past Sunday. Francesca Battistelli’s song “He Knows My Name” popped up on my radio.
What a song to just bless me. I was actually struggling through some deep rooted sadness. I was struggling through joy. I think I had not prayed much, maybe half-heartedly, that day. My thoughts were scattered. I was disappointed.
As I started to look to Him, this song was playing.
He knows my name.
This afternoon it came on again as I worked through another day of struggle. I was somewhat low. I felt that there wasn’t much in me. I felt a bit worthless.
After that song and time with my husband just using music (he played the guitar while I sung with a group of others), I knew God was with me.
It’s annoying to struggle through those tough spots.
It’s not like people aren’t there for me, that my family doesn’t love me. I know they do. I just go into times of depression and it drives me crazy. Because I know it is only for a season and God can work through it no matter what. That I have to fight against the lies I hear in my head. I just have to keep going towards Him.
I don’t need everyone to do things for me to make me feel better.
I am famous in my Father’s eyes.
I may forget at times but I know that I am blessed beyond all measure. Even when I think no one sees me, He sees me. Just like Hagar when she ran away from Sarah. After God spoke to her she called Him the One who sees me. He knows our deepest desires, fears and thoughts. She wasn’t perfect, but God loved her and showed her Himself. He keeps His promises.
He does the same thing in my life.
Sometimes I forget this because I can only see me and my own desires, but even now I want to see Him through it all.
And He does show Himself bigger than I could ever think.
We all struggle. Some of us with brokenness. Know you are not alone.
Be inspired today!