So, can you believe it? I finally found a blog theme I love, bought it with money I earned for babysitting and I just can’t believe what I am looking at! Can you? It almost feels professional. (And I am far from professional if you have been with me long enough to find out!)
Yesterday I couldn’t get on to let you know how things went because I went to go see War Room (without my kids this time) and heard so much more and got so much more out of it that I was glad I went again. I also went with a beautiful group of people I have learned to cherish on this journey towards freedom. I don’t know if I mentioned it but on Tuesday nights my husband and I joined a group to help with the worship team and eventually I ended up joining in at Discover Life. It has been a blessing to be around these believers who just love the Lord and all want to grow in their walk and our working through things they haven’t wanted to touch. It was like going with my greatest friends to this movie, and it truly blessed me.
With that being said, I know the battle is on because yesterday, I was feeling literally PULLED to my computer screen. Wow. I wanted to get on Facebook during my break time or any time I just wanted DOWN TIME. I having to try to stop myself and figure out something else.
I did go on the computer, but instead of just scanning Facebook for hours I only put on few little Youtube videos for my kids that went with Mexico (since that is what we are learning about). I did that a little today too, using Expedition Mexico from Amanda Bennett, but I don’t think it would be right for me to share those at this time.
The ones I found you can see if you have the time:
But, still, after those few videos I was ready to turn it off again! It sucks you in and it’s like something shifts in your atmosphere. We don’t need to live off the computer or movies that we’ve been watching, and, here I was, still watching movies. Small ones but still movies!
Then food has been on and off. There are meals where I am doing great. I am having a hard time sticking to plan without all the supplies but I am trying harder than I was. If I finally eat something that I think will give me great joy and fill my hole, it does absolutely nothing. So what does that really say? (It’s all in my mind, right?) And who do I really need at this moment? God. I need to stop running to these things that do NOTHING! Amen?
On a more positive note, homeschooling has been great with me saying “no” more to electronics and yes to doing more activities with the kids, like listen to music, go on a nature walk (which hopefully I can share our pictures we took tomorrow as we went down the road and just observed those things that were around us!). In some ways I am amazed that we are actually getting through all of things they need to get done this week compared what last week was like! Each day we start with just getting up and into a routine, do a Bible time together and I just work with each child as I am lead to. It usually ends up that my 1st grader gets my attention near the end, but that also gives him a chance to have total attention, just like the other two seem to be getting here and there.
Through all this learning and growing we’ve been enjoying the process of learning about Mexico, the culture, the people and the geography. My kids pay for their food with fake pesos (which is such a neat idea!) and we use Wee Sing to hear a few songs from different countries (one of our favorites being Tingalayo! You will hear us sing that at least twice a day and Monkey sometimes pretends to be the donkey. Lots of fun!). We are hoping to have a fiesta and cook up a couple of things on Saturday. Maybe even hit a piñata. We shall see!
Also, with the technology break (which only happens with Mommy, by the way. I am not forcing my husband or my Mom, when she is with the kids, to carry this out), my kids have definitely been more creative even though it’s only been two days. They are creative anyway, but shutting off those things has made them really do more and be more. I’m loving it! Drawing, crafting and building have been huge. Camping ideas, nature walks, etc. That and the relationships between them are slightly better. I say slightly because there is always something that gets blown out of proportion or where someone really does something mean and we have to work it out. But it seems to be resolving quicker. Let’s hope that keeps happening!
In a few minutes I am going to just go pray, but I wanted to drop a line for today. I feel like this battle is bigger than me and so I need Jesus to help me through this and I am using the blog to keep me accountable. I want to eat better. I want to put the right things before my eyes. But it’s hard in the world we live in to do that because I am just seen as strange. And yet Paul was in the middle of Rome, and you know it wasn’t perfect back then either, and he lived out Christ. I want the right attitude. I want to believe God is for me and to walk in His authority.
I think with watching the movie I mentioned earlier brought forth a lot in my own heart and that my biggest struggle sometimes is just believing at times. I guess it goes into not trusting as much as I would like too, and it’s something I am going to address to God tonight.
So friends, whatever battle you are facing, take it to the Lord tonight and truly have a blessed day!
Be inspired today.