Spring is in the air. The temperatures are warmer than they have been all winter. And though in the Catskills, snow still tries to tie us down, knowing it will soon be too warm for it fills many with hope of new life.
Neon green buds of leaves.
People jogging outside…
I don’t know if you see more people outside in Spring, but I know I do! Not much just yet, but once that cold weather breaks people are jogging, bicycling and and doing all sorts of active things.
Because Spring does that to people!
We go out more. We feel the warmth of the sunshine on our skin. The colors waken our senses to new life! We smile more as we soak up much needed Vitamin D.
Spring is here friends!
So, the question is, “How’s your health, Mama?” Do you have any goals? Any hopes or dreams of what this spring and summer need to bring?
Dedicate them to God. Ask Him if it is time and ask for help. Lots and lots of help!
This is the time we usually start evaluating all the extra fat we had on us to keep us warm during the winter. We wonder if it will burn off or stick for another six years (you must think the same thing, right?). We wonder if we are ever going to get it all off!
A lot of my concerns go into my health. I have issues.
My husband challenged me the other day after everyone had been sick, pretty much throwing up all over the place. I felt like my pancreas was hurting after all the ickiness and fear hit me. So I shared this with my husband.
Did I never tell you the story of my pancreas?
After a month of having my firstborn (I had toxemia and had to have a c-section where I was in the hospital for five more days after that), I had to go back to the hospital. My pancreas was inflamed. I thought at first that maybe it was just a gas bubble when it first happened because at one point it seemed like the pain went away. I just felt I couldn’t eat or wasn’t that hungry. But, eventually pain returned, it was so painful, I had to go to the hospital.
We found out later they thought a gall stone had passed through my pancreas.
I was in and out of the hospital for three months.
We found out that not only did the gall stone pass through my pancreas but did some damage in there as well, to the point where my pancreas was leaking and formed a cyst of some sort.
They tried to drain it with one tube. Then they tried to drain it with another. At first it seemed to work and I was sent home, but then I was back in the hospital.
They finally said they would have to drain it surgically.
That was one of the hardest times of my life.
But I didn’t want to believe that I had problems. I didn’t want to believe my pancreas was damaged at all. I had missed out on a few months of my Engineer’s life, and now I would have to watch what I eat. I should have watched what I shouldn’t eat but I didn’t want to hear it.
And so, I went back to normal eating.
After a couple of times where my body could not handle caffeine, I laid off some of my favorite teas, and if I had any, it would be decaffeinated or I would use it sparingly.
I didn’t want to believe I had a problem.
But I did. My next 3 pregnancies I went through gestational diabetes.
(Shall I mention that NO ONE IN MY FAMILY has ever had gestational diabetes that we know of?)
Did that change the way I ate?
I still did not stick to what I was suppose to do and Artsie was a 10 lb baby, but my biggest was Monkey. He came out the natural way at 11 lbs 3 oz. They were shocked in the hospital. If they knew he was that big they would have done a c-section. (When Pudding came out he was only in the 9 lb area and they thought he was big. Boy, what is the size of big?)
So let me get back to what I was saying before about my pancreas and sickness.
I had this pain in my pancreas after all the sickness in my house, and it scared me. It reminded me of all those times in the past. I went to my husband with my fears, and he was like, “That is not good.”
He took my shoulders and looked me dead in the eyes.
“You need to be more determined to get your health together. You need to eat better and exercise more.”
I know I do. The constant struggle to stay on task and to just be free has been huge. If you are in the same place, know you are not alone! I really feel this is a huge area of battle, especially for women.
So what has helped me work in this battle? Has anything worked?
I can say that I have been doing more than I used to do (and I used to do nothing).
A lot more!
But it still isn’t enough.
At times I was still eating what I want.
I’ve talked about wanting to eat the Trim Healthy Mama diet, and I have.
But not consistently.
I have talked about exercising and things I have done.
But not consistently.
And if I were to tell you right now I am where I am suppose to be, it would be a complete lie.
So the time is now! With the beauty of the seasons changing, I want to change. I want God to take all the mess that I call my body and help me make it His temple.
I want to be whole.
I want to start now.
So what are my goals?
1) Food– Do Trim Healthy Mama
The past 3 days I have been only eating meals that are on plan. That has helped me immensely brain-wise (no cloudiness), but it takes constant prayer and watching that I don’t eat emotionally (which I have been tempted to about two times). I also am praying because I wonder, as I go through this, if my body is going to detox and fight me in the second week! Prayer is essential, and on this list, but I have to mention it more than once.
2) Exercise– I am trying to do 10-45 minutes a day exercising. I did the last 3 days, but today I haven’t yet and we are already hitting 9 pm. It is possible, though, to still get it in. So after this, I guess I’ll try to do a 10 minute workout. I have mentioned on a post at the beginning of the year with some videos on Youtube you can check out if you are new to the whole workout idea, as well as apps I have enjoyed. You may also find some on my Youtube page that I have enjoyed (I will possible make another list later if you want to follow some of my ideas). Please take the time to look if you would like some where to start.
3) Prayer– Honestly, I need to focus on Christ through all of this.
This change is not just about me. It’s a change of heart. It’s a change of mind. It is asking God to piece me together and help me stick to what I feel He put on my heart to begin with. To honor him with my body and how I take care of it.
4) Bible Reading/Study– Start working on the areas that trigger emotional eating.
I love Lysa Terkuerst’s book Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, Not Food
. She works through a lot of topics that go into the root of why we eat the way we eat. I am hoping to do that with some women in my church sometime this Spring/Summer because I am not the only one who emotionally eats food.
I am also reading through the book of Acts and hopefully will be doing a Beth Moore Breaking Free: Discover the Victory of Total Surrender
study with a friend. They have updated it so I am not sure what it will look like just yet. There are so many things we can study to help us grow. Resources are endless. Doing it with others helps a lot.
5) Support/Accountability– I have a couple of friends that are helping me stay accountable. I ask them for prayer whenever I start to crave something else I shouldn’t have. They sometimes encourage me with great words and it really has been a blessing. Make sure you find a support group. If you would like me to help you, leave a message and I will try to do what I can. I will be sharing on my site my journey at least once a week, so that you can be encouraged that we are walking this together.
There probably are more goals I could think of or add, but my house is getting chaotic, and so I need to go!
Honestly, I wouldn’t be on this journey if God didn’t put me on it and I pray through maybe sharing this journey with you, it will help you also get to where you need to be emotionally, physically, spiritually and mentally.
Be inspired today!