Yesterday and today, I have been doing CAT tests with my kids. I ordered them from Christian Liberty and had my kids take parts, having them do it online this time so the timing would be right and I wouldn’t go over, just in case!
And even though I thought we would be okay, and Artsie did fine on it, again this year Engineer didn’t do very well.
And the enemy rubbed it in.
Well, Engineer only did some of it and it actually isn’t finished, but it’s crazy how emotions can ruin everything.
I want to be a better teacher. But as I stare at myself it seems that I am not anywhere close to that and I get angry.
Does this sound familiar to anyone else? Because I know I am not the only Mom who is looking at herself going, “What was I thinking?”
The enemy does not want us to be with our kids. To love them. To understand them. He wants us to be broken. He wants them to be broken. He wants us to be hindered. It’s painful sometimes what we fall into.
And yet God has a bigger plan! Is this really about me? Or is this about something bigger?
I homeschool because God put it on my heart.
I homeschool because it gives me time with my kids and allows them to learn at their own pace, in their own way.
I homeschool because the benefits outweigh any negative feeling I have.
If I am looking to God, and not myself, it really isn’t about my inadequacies. It’s about Him and what He wants to accomplish in and around me. He is more than adequate. He can teach me. He can teach through me. I need to trust in Him
You may be feeling that way today. Especially as you get closer to the end of the year. That discouragement just eats us up. The lies of the enemy penetrate. Don’t lose hope! Let me pray with you today!
Lord God, thank you so much for being with us. That You know all things. That You have a heart bigger than ours and that your thoughts and plans are higher than ours. You see the big picture that our finite brains miss. We look at today, but you see eternity. Help us to trust You. Help us to know You and to know You have other things in mind. That our failures or our kid’s failures or mistakes are not who we are. We are Yours. They are Yours. We could do nothing without you. Help us have a new day tomorrow with a fresh start. Help us to look to You every time we feel weak or discouraged. Help us to dig into your word, and stand on You, our Rock. Thank You for Your love and peace that passes all understanding, that is beyond our fears or our circumstances! The peace that the world does not give, but that You give. I pray for your presence. Help our children see you. I pray all these things in Your name. Amen.
Be inspired today!
(Next week I will give an overview of my co-op classes. What worked, what didn’t work and hopefully that will bless you as well! In God’s peace!)